Disbelieving, Ray/Frank, PG-13

[lizhanne]

Title: Disbelieving
Author: anne_elliot
Rating: PG-13
Pairing: Ray Toro/Frank Iero
Author's notes: 303 words. First piece of My Chemical Romance fiction, short and slightly angsty.
Huge thanks to tarteaucitron for beta-ing at the speed of light something in a fandom she isn't in, and to [Bad username or unknown identity: My Sam]
for reading it at 3AM. :)
Disclaimer: Lie: an assertion of something known or believed by the speaker to be untrue with intent to deceive.


In the red lights of the pub, Ray watches him, trying not to be too obvious.
His skin is glowing in the red light with a sickly, pinkish hue, but still Ray can’t keep his eyes off him – sometimes he feels a stupid pride in thinking that he’s the only one who can understand how beautiful Frank really is, even when he’s tired and drunk, and in dire need of a shower.

With open eyes, Ray can perfectly remember the way that same skin looked like against his, bathed by a different light, milky and subtle, coming in from the window.

“Do you think they can see us outside?”

“I don’t think so, the lights are off. I don’t care, anyway. They’d only be jealous of me.”

How beautifully disbelieving his smile had looked at that moment; and for a second Ray had hoped that maybe he’d be able to make him see the truth, make him look at himself through his, Ray’s, eyes, and finally understand that that was how it was meant to be.

As it turned out, it didn’t work.

Ray catches his eyes for a fleeting moment, smiling and affectionate and nothing else, before he sees Frank reach for his ringing telephone, a completely different smile lighting up his features as he looks for a more quiet spot, covering his other ear to shield it from the loud music.

Frank turns to look at him before moving away, his eyebrows raising in a mute, concerned question; Ray smiles and nods in what he hopes is a convincing way, quickly hiding himself behind his beer bottle.

As Frank walks into the toilets, the only quiet place in the pub, Ray closes his eyes and tries to recall the scent of Frank that had lingered on his bed sheets for days.

Comments

[xoverau.livejournal.com]

Awwwwwww. Awww! My heart, she breaks! Poor Ray.

[anne-elliot.livejournal.com]

*offers home made cookies for comfort*

Poor Ray, I know. I am an evil, evil person for treating him like this.
Hopefully, Bob will comfort him soon. :)

[saavira.livejournal.com]

Oh, the angst! Oh, Ray! *huggles him* It's ok, there's still Bob, Mikey, and Gerard. And if none of them works out, you will still have your hair!


And I have no idea what I mean either...and I wonder why my friends think I'm nuts. Ha, I said nuts. *coughs* *runs away*

[nest-freemark.livejournal.com]

And if none of them works out, you will still have your hair!

*cackle*

[anne-elliot.livejournal.com]

Ray's hair can make everything in the world better. :)

[nest-freemark.livejournal.com]

*weeps and pets Ray* pretty but much with the angst.

[anne-elliot.livejournal.com]

Thanks for the pretty, and sorry for the angst...I shouldn't be so mean to poor Ray, I know.
*pets the 'fro*

[futureperfect.livejournal.com]

n'aww! and the fact that frank still cares enough to be concerned... oh ray! *pets* maybe bob'n'mikes will let you play with them & their rhythm section love?

[anne-elliot.livejournal.com]

maybe bob'n'mikes will let you play with them & their rhythm section love?

Now, that's an image that the Ray in my head likes a huge lot. :)

I might have been a bit cruel with him here, but at least *looks up at comments* I've earned Ray some good cuddling!

[futureperfect.livejournal.com]

mikey would be up for it. he has to go check with bob first though, because bob is susprisingly possessive.

[anne-elliot.livejournal.com]

You know, I have the feeling that Bob first turned to Mikey in an inconscious attempt to forget that Ray had only eyes for Frank...so maybe he wouldn't be so hard to convince, after all. *g*

[futureperfect.livejournal.com]

yes, but bob would always have this niggling fear ray would run back to frank if frank so much as beckoned. and mikey? is totally into bob and not because he can't have anyone else.

[anne-elliot.livejournal.com]

Ray will always run back to Frank, if he wanted him. He just can't help it. But Bob wants to console him anyway, even if it would break him a little. Mikey is totally into Bob, but he's also a bit of a slut, so...Ray will get lots of love from them, before the inevitable Angst Breakdown comes. Because what if Mikey seems to like Ray just a bit too much, and Bob suddenly starts to feel jealous of him?

[androgynous-ken.livejournal.com]

Aww. This really fits with many of Ray's actual mannerisms, I think: Ray smiles and nods in what he hopes is a convincing way, quickly hiding himself behind his beer bottle. I really bought that. Nice job.

[anne-elliot.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much. :)

[jenish.livejournal.com]

Oh, my heart.

[anne-elliot.livejournal.com]

Oh, no! So sorry, Braintwin. *offers honey and incredible amounts of love*